Last year, I was very disappointed with myself with how I was not able to progress that much with NANOWRIMO. I also was not writing that much.
Looking back on what I have been doing – it was not so much as a lack of time, it was more of a lack of discipline. I was spending way too much time doing other things other than writing.
Well, to be fair to myself, I pursued film making more last year, rather than writing. I learned video editing and videography. We even invested in a professional-quality (though not state-of-the-art) camera that can take good videos. Film making on a smartphone can be a good form of practice, but there are a lot of limitations that a gear upgrade could solve. In any case, I did mention in this blog a couple of times that I ended up being the cameraman/producer for my wife’s youtube channel.
For the past few months, I have found myself unable to blog. Not just blogging, but writing in general.
This year’s NANOWRIMO has been one of my lowest word count in a while. It’s not the lack of time that’s the issue here. I am not bogged down by work as I have been in the previous years.
I cracked my knuckles before my fingers hovered above the home keys on the keyboard.
I know I haven’t been posting in a while, and in order for me to break the habit of not posting in the blog, I have to kick start the process by simply diving in.
There is a certain power in words, most specially the written one, that I find quite interesting.
However, I have found that fiction – fantastical and emotional, and even tragic stories hold great sway to a man’s heart and mind.
For the past few months I have felt uninspired to write anything. Sure, I can wrangle up some words to begin a story, yet I cannot seem to get the inspiration to continue it. My life seems empty and shallow, and I cannot seem to be able to craft something of value.
Does that mean I am doomed to not be a story-teller? Does that mean that I am destined to just be an avid reader?
Why do I want to write in the first place?
I want to share my thoughts. A person’s mind is a sealed world that is hard to enter. Without a granted access we can’t peer into what a person’s thoughts want to say. However, there is a certain art necessary to putting words together to make a story interesting. You can have the most interesting story in the world, but with terrible writing skills, it may be better to watch trash burning.
Williams once faced an evil wizard in a tower. They fought. Zap! Williams defeated the wizard with a piece of pie. It was a sight to behold.
Is it selfish of me to want to write a story that would have a great impact on people the same way that other’s writings and works have affected me as well? The adventures of a hero, the death of a character, the trials and tribulations of an ordinary man thrown into the depths of hell from a series of unfortunate events…
The wonder of reading and experiencing another life in another world – I also want others to experience it through my works.
Things may be a bit uninspiring now, things may not be moving forward, however I often need to remind myself the reason I want to be one. I may be terrible now, I may not be of much good as a novelist. Fine – I’ll write you short stories. If I can’t write fictitious stories, I’ll tell you stories drawn from my own life. I’ll write you articles, and essays.
I want to write because I want to be a positive influence in the world.
Thank you very much for reading!
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I don’t feel like writing today,
Words don’t seem to come my way,
The cursor keeps blinking away,
Nothing from my brain, hurray!
I mumble, and I grumble,
My fingers all a fumble,
This state I’m in, laughable,
On this block, I fall, stumble.
I guess I won’t be writing,
I’ll lounge around, reading,
Or catch up to some watching,
I am done with the typing.
-Jomz Ojeda
I really should be doing something, but here I am procrastinating by writing. Haha…
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Let’s face it, as creators, we know that regular content can rake in viewers and visitors, and the more viewers and visitors we have, the more “successful” our blogs become. Therefore, we have this constant nagging in our minds that we have to always have something up our sleeves so our readers can have something worth their while.
It is good for the handful of pros who have a schedule or calendar of things to post. It is just a matter of building a habit of having content ready to go, for the masses who are struggling to craft something, it can be a struggle.
It had been an exhausting experience, up to a point where I felt I had to take a break from writing.
I know, I know, it is not a very professional thing to say. Pro writers write despite what they feel. I may not be “Pro” level, but having a professional mindset to what you are doing helps get things done. However, writing, as a creative process makes use of energy and emotions that far surpasses a professional mindset for fuel and motivation. I felt spent, empty and exhausted. I had to step back and take a break.
So, I failed the writing challenge. Big deal.
However, this year’s journey has been meaningful. This year’s NANOWRIMO has been my most successful, despite its appearances.
Here are why my 2019 NANOWRIMO was the best (so far)
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