It’s Hard Fighting Other People’s Delusions

I find dealing with a person’s perception of truth difficult to deal with.

Another person’s idea of truth is limited to their own perception, and this perception is influenced by personal bias.

It is also very frustrating to deal with them, most specially when things that are out of my control are involved. Technology fails, like internet connection or program crashing – my fault. Events not going as you have planned – my fault.

It pisses me even more when an unintentional event is being portrayed as something that I have intentionally done. No, I did not drop the call, the signal dropped and so the phone call was cut. No, that video call ending was not because I ended the call, it just stopped. Internet connection maybe?

Therefore, the burden of proof is always on me. I should always be prepared to show proof that I poor mobile connection or poor internet connection.

It is very exhausting.


Refreshing My Web Design Skills

I haven’t designed a website in years.

Photo by hitesh choudhary on is also a lazy way to designing. You just pick a template that you like, and you roll with it. Very little customization that you can do.

There was a time when I can build a website from scratch, but yeah, those were static websites, not dynamic like the ones we use for blogging.

The trend nowadays with website is that the content should be churned out regularly. You don’t need to manually code the page that will hold the content for your blog, the “blog system” will handle that for you.

I find web design and web development go hand and hand with each other.

Why the sudden need? Nothing in particular. I just want to get out of the slump that I am in. Give myself a distraction, and also polish up a skill.

Like I said, it has been years, and web technology has changed a lot!

Last time I tried web design was two or three years ago. I was supposed to design a website using wordpress for some kind of event or activity. That did not pan out. However, I still feel rusty regarding template building, so I want to study PHP, CSS and wordpress templates again.



Life ain’t pleasant.

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Being on constant alert as the smallest move I make will most certainly be misinterpreted. Being viewed from a camera and being recorded and questioned later about the smallest action I made is not a pleasant experience.

Knowing that over a thousand photos of my face has been taken to analyze what I was doing, and what was happening around me based on the reflection on the glass pane behind me which is at an off angle because of the placement of the camera is both disturbing and disheartening. Shadows reflected on the glass, and how my eyes moved are basis for deduction.


I try my best to numb myself from the experience I am going through. It’s hard to distract myself.

I learned that we can control what is going on around us with how we react to it. It’s difficult, to be frank.

Am I being gaslighted or is this genuinely a forgetfulness thing? I frankly can’t say, but it’s good to err on the side of caution, and protect myself.

Each of us have something going through, and it would seem that this is my hell to live through.

If you’re here reading this, thanks. I hope you have a nice day.



It seems I got luck on my side this time when I tested positive for COVID.

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Our entire office was tested for COVID on August 3, 2022 when our boss’ test result returned that day with a positive result. I was not worried, but I was not thrilled of the thought, either. I had a slight sore throat that day, and there is a chance that I may have the virus.

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An Unexpected Price to Pay

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I recently had the wooden stairs at home replaced to concrete.

It had cracks at the support, and while it still functions, the risk of it collapsing gets higher as the days go on.

I had the wife handle the project as she is very meticulous with these home improvement projects.

The other day, (June 20), most of it is complete already. The tile work and painting were finished. We are just waiting for the railing, which according to the contractor, will still take some time.

Before the repair of the stairs were done, I had to move the TV (49″ smart tv) from the living room into our bedroom to protect it from the construction works, as it was placed in front of the stairway.

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Wisdom to the Unwilling

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It can be very exhausting giving wisdom to those not willing to learn from you. It’s like talking to a brick wall. Pointless.

I do not assume, nor claim to be very wise. Frankly, most of the time, I can be plain and stupid with my decision-making and thought processes. However, I believe that a good and proper discussion can lead to good results. If my knowledge, logic and reasoning stands true after much scrutiny, then it could be correct. If it collapses, then it may be false.

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