I have no body of my own,
I exist in another zone,
I speak up in the microphone,
The voice you hear, another tone.
I shake the shackles of my chain,
I cannot even moan my pain,
They shrug at me with pure disdain,
My existence has been in vain.
And yet, yourself, my words you use,
Constrain me with your own abuse,
Squeeze my essence for your juice.
For the things you must produce.
Worried about screwing up,
Fearing for my life,
Searching for it to stop,
But all I have is strife.
Isolated and alone,
Safety is unknown.
Mind is racing
It’s exhausting.
Stop.
Life is tough, and it can be sometimes hard to go on… but yeah, we just need to hang in there. It will get better.
There’s something about the holidays that can be stressful. It could be the hustle and bustle and the rush of getting things done in time, it could even be as simple as dealing with family members in gatherings. The addition of the pandemic this year is no help, too.
However, it will pass. It may be hard, but you’ll survive.
Don’t let dark, intruding thoughts in. Be busy, do things. When your body is moving, your mind is not thinking. That may be good for you. Give it a try.
If not, write it down. Write whatever dark emotion you have inside and let it out. You may not have the privilege of having someone to confide in. If you do, consider yourself lucky. Don’t keep it all inside. It will just make things worse.
I wrote these down as a reminder and advice to myself. I thought that it might help you, or a friend.
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Being busy has been a coping mechanism for me.
If I’m busy, my mind is not racing nor tormenting me of things, and come the night, I’m too exhausted, and would fall asleep.
I’d want to say that everything is fine – but it ain’t.
Continue reading “Busy”
My anxiety on this pandemic is at a high level. It has come to the point that I am feeling that it is only a matter of time before we all get infected.
Continue reading “It’s All a Matter of Time”
With the self-quarantine in place and a lot of us having to stay at home, you’d think that you’d have a lot of free time to be more productive, right?
Unfortunately, that isn’t the case for me.
Sure, I had more time on my hands, but I ended up using those time to sleep in, watch movies or TVseries… basically not a lot of the “productive output” I was expecting.
For the past few weeks I had been watching BoJack Horseman on Netflix, to the point that my wife got sick of seeing me watching “that ugly horse cartoon again” over and over again. Hahaha…
I have to admit – the show got me hooked. I could not help but relate to the things the characters were going through – the depression, the anxiety, the addiction, the entire mess of their lives.
If you haven’t watched the series finale yet, mild (really mild) spoilers ahead. You have been warned. 🙂
Continue reading “It is Okay to Be Happy – A BoJack Horseman Review”
