My back-up external hard disk, which due to budget issues, became my primary storage for files, got corrupted last week.
My files are gone.
I am distraught, and I feel like throwing up.
It even led me to an existential crisis, making me think of dark, dark thoughts, on life and death, and what is the purpose of living, if we will just die and be forgotten.Continue reading “It’s All Gone”
I don’t feel like moving,
All of these, so tiring,
As the world is burning.
These burdens are heavy,
With no one to help me.
Piled up beyond safety,
This life’s a travesty.
This path that I’ve taken,
Has left me forsaken,
With trials and frustration,
And foul, dark emotion.
I’m exhausted, so tired.
I can’t move, I’m mired,
Just waiting to be expired.
Life is tough, and it can be sometimes hard to go on… but yeah, we just need to hang in there. It will get better.
There’s something about the holidays that can be stressful. It could be the hustle and bustle and the rush of getting things done in time, it could even be as simple as dealing with family members in gatherings. The addition of the pandemic this year is no help, too.
However, it will pass. It may be hard, but you’ll survive.
Don’t let dark, intruding thoughts in. Be busy, do things. When your body is moving, your mind is not thinking. That may be good for you. Give it a try.
If not, write it down. Write whatever dark emotion you have inside and let it out. You may not have the privilege of having someone to confide in. If you do, consider yourself lucky. Don’t keep it all inside. It will just make things worse.
I wrote these down as a reminder and advice to myself. I thought that it might help you, or a friend.
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For the past few weeks I had been watching BoJack Horseman on Netflix, to the point that my wife got sick of seeing me watching “that ugly horse cartoon again” over and over again. Hahaha…
I have to admit – the show got me hooked. I could not help but relate to the things the characters were going through – the depression, the anxiety, the addiction, the entire mess of their lives.
If you haven’t watched the series finale yet, mild (really mild) spoilers ahead. You have been warned. 🙂